It's funny how one day you feel ennui and the next you're more determined than ever.
I've probably said this before, during this project even, and it's because I've always been a yoyo. Yoyoing between highs and lows.
It's a tiring way to be, but it's also exhilarating.
It's like living your life on a coaster ride. Literally.
I don't recommend this kind of existence, nor does it happen to people who have not been "graced" by the bipolar gene, but I have also accepted that I generally enjoy and have become used to the ebbs and flows of my life.
So today I feel determined to prove to the ENNUI that I got this.
I have finally - at the ripe age of 30 - learned how to do my makeup, so I can record intros to my upcoming course. And it's been a ridiculously long road getting here because I have been overcomplicating everything.
Truth is, my first course doesn't need to be:
- a signature course
- the most rebellious thing I've ever created
- what everyone wants
Truth is, my first course will be the EASIEST thing I'll create this year.
And then I'm gonna sell it in the easiest way for me.
Basically, I have decided to stop overcomplicating everything, strategizing every single step, and putting awful pressure on my tiny creative business. What I want is to create - whatever I create is going to be unique enough - and just go into the flow of shipping things. Because that's what makes up the business.
If you're overplanning or always skipping to what's next, you may need to just take a step back and spend your next week creating.
It's doing wonders for me and raising my motivation levels.