Today's a funny day.
First I didn't really want to get up at all - you know, one of those mornings - and when I finally did my to-do list was waiting to pounce on me, which I let it, and the rest of it was just doing everything I was supposed to do.
But wait, that's not even half of it!!!
You know how sometimes you fill your days with tasks to numb yourself of the reality you live in? Makes sense when you hate your life, but...
I don't hate my life, dammit!
Maybe I fill my days too much because I want to do everything and there's really no time for that. Maybe I fill my days because I want to do a few things at once, and that's not possible either. Or maybe I just like staying busy, which is a sickness everybody has these days.
Today I started planning something that would overfill my days.
I should know better than this by now, but we are who we are, and we do what we do, and it's hard to "hold your horses" when they're running a race you didn't agree to run. So question is... are you going to stay in the race or drop out or stay somewhere in the middle, hoping one of the other horses takes you down for the season? (It happens.)
OK, maybe I'm going too far, but I like racing!
Maybe I don't have time for this new membership idea.
And maybe nobody's going to be interested in it...
But how can I stop such a tasty idea from forming? I have such a strong desire to see what comes of something, and whether it works or not, nipping it in the bud - before I know whether it works or not - would be cruel.
Have you committed it?
How did you feel about it? Was there regret?
As always, let me know on twitter.